Is two jobs too much for me??

I've been feeling rather rundown and over worked and I'm starting to wonder if this is too much for me. Then again the situation last night didn't help... it triggered me but I kept in control. I just feel like something is out of wack in my life and it needs to change. But what, How????? I have a second job, and I love both of them but I feel rather overworked and sleep exhausted. I've done both jobs in the past few days and am starting to realize that it could be too much for me, but how can I tell... I need the money, I need to feel like I'm getting someplace in life without so much financial problems. It seems like something needs to change.... I know I have to set some boundaries and that's hard for me. But I also don't want to set boundaries..... Then again if I don't people will continue to walk all over me, and I won't get things accomplished. So I just sent a text message to a friend wondering if we are still a couple...... I'm very nervous about the response. The response was a yes....I told him that I had something that I wanted to go over to decide what type of relationship this is... and I get the response of "okay" I think that word needs to be banned from society... But that's just me. at least I can laugh about what is happening to me.. I need to laugh a bit more.........

My boy

I have had glimpses into what the future could be by my therapist. .. I keep thinking about it and its leading to some very uncomfortable thoughts.

By uncomfortable,  I mean some suicidal type thoughts.  This is not easy. What do I do?

I will follow my instincts and be careful. That's all I can do, really that's all anyone can do. And just enjoy the journey to see if there are changes in both of us. We have seen each other at our worst, now what is it like when we are at our best?

What do I do?? 2

I keep thinking... and this is not ending up very good. I just want to sleep, and not think. I've been thinking about a relationship and it's just not going well. I don't know what to do, so I asked to just be friends but I kinda doubt that decision. I don't know which side of me I am following. It's a very sexually stimulated relationship and I just don't know. How can I tell between my head and my heart? I just don't know.

Yet I know that I'm not the only one that has this issue but, it just seems like I'm all alone... I need some support people. I need some friends. I need a distraction. I need to just take my mind off my pain, both physical and emotional. Please just let me not think.....