What more can I do???

I'm going to school, so I have lots of stress there. That's the only thing that's new.... and yet mentally things are going out of control... I just don't know what else I can do. I have very few people to talk to, Few that I feel actually safe talking to. I'm out of ideas, who out there can I trust.... that wont tell anyone else that could get me in trouble, or who would come to me if there was some sort of issue.... All I want to do is si and then scream. Or do something that could be noticed... oh wait that would land me in a place I don't want to be.... I really hate my life. And if you know me personally, it would be a good time to start talking to me... It may just help, to get all of this out of my mouth instead of through my hands. How much longer can I take this, this time?