Over the past week I have felt more energized by this song from Disney's Frozen, called Let it Go,
I finally articulated part of what I do for si, but it's still hard for
me. My favorite line is "the Perfect Girl is gone" I always thought
that I had to be perfect, and that's when things got harder. I've always
been told that I have to be perfect, and then I found pain to be
something to help control the shame, but it added more shame.
I've
been hurt by my family, by hiding si, hiding depression, hiding every
negative thought. It doesn't bother me but the withdrawal of those
around me has affected my relationships. Because of all the shame, I
hide EVERYTHING. This song helps me to just let it go, not caring what
people think. I still want to hide but I realize that mental things have
caused some problems with those around me.
I keep playing the
song hoping that I will be able to just let things go, and not give into
any urges. But the storm is all around me. "Conceal don't feel.... I
don't care what they are going to say" I just hope that last part can
come true for me, that I can trust in myself to be able to see what I
can achieve.
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