Thoughts on me

I'm listening to good music, why don't I feel happy, why do I feel confused?!

I have one foot in and one out. I long to be near someone.... Yet i am so far away.

I want to hurt, I want to feel, I want to be me. Is that too much to ask for?

Apparently it is too much to ask.

Over the past 4 months I have been isolated from relationships. But that's not working for me. I need people. I need something in common. But is that one thing in common what I want?

I'm bored. Don't know what to do. No real friends. Only those that are far away. The ones that I have are superficial or only want one thing.

So how can I be someone I'm not? But who is this person? I've lost myself, and I hate it.