Up since 4am... and still up!!!!

I should be sleeping but still can't sleep, even though I know I'm tired. The issue is I finally told someone face to face what has been going on with some people close to me. It's been very hard to deal with and I haven't wanted to talk about it very much. AHHHHHH  and of course I want things I can't have... I hope something changes... soon... or I can find someone to talk to....