Another round

Another hospitalization.... Please tell me I don't have to go back EVER!!!! I feel like I failed my family in dealing with the situation but it wasn't my fault. I was abused sexually and physically. I couldn't say no!! That's one mistake I will not make again. Worst of all I feel like I don't have a job right now, and it's getting too me.. what will I do with my time besides job hunt.. or should I move home. I'm not self-sufficient, and I hate it. I need some help!! I can't do  this alone. That's why I have a higher power, a God, some how this will work out. I just hope I know how it will work out soon.