My Fight Song

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
(Starting right now) I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep
Everybody's worried about me
In too deep
Say I'm in too deep (I'm in too deep)
And it's been two years
I miss my home
But there's a fire burning in my bones
And I still believe
Yeah I still believe

And all those things I didn't say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
(Starting right now) I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

A lot of fight left in me

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match

But I can make an explosion

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I'm alright song
My power's turned on
(Starting right now) I'll be strong
I'll play my fight song
And I don't really care if nobody else believes
'Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in me

Now I've still got a lot of fight left in me

This Song has been playing in my head and on the radio all week.....Because of one line. "Take back my life song, Prove I'm alright song" That's what I have to do, I have to take back my life to prove to myself that I can stop sabotaging myself. I'm still doing that today!!! I'm frustrated and angry at myself and I don't like this feeling, How do I change???? Or do I need to change my room to change myself and get me out of the same shit that I have been doing for the past few months... this has been going on long enough. It's time to get my act back together and do something for me. Then I think if I am strong enough.... another self-sabotage. I really hate this!!!! I don't feel all that safe in my own skin. How do I spend this time by myself if I fucking hate myself. I hate who I have become, and this anger isn't leading to a good point.... It's time to take back my life!!