Paper

The last week I was working on a paper on suicide..... and today, I wrapped a cord around my neck to see how it felt. Then looked up information. I've been out of the psych ward for a week, and the thoughts are back because of what I was studying. I'm very afraid to be alone tomorrow. Scared that I could try it again, for reals this time... also scared that I'd end up back in the psych ward... No one will be around me for much of tomorrow.... I'm scared.