What more can I do???

I'm going to school, so I have lots of stress there. That's the only thing that's new.... and yet mentally things are going out of control... I just don't know what else I can do. I have very few people to talk to, Few that I feel actually safe talking to. I'm out of ideas, who out there can I trust.... that wont tell anyone else that could get me in trouble, or who would come to me if there was some sort of issue.... All I want to do is si and then scream. Or do something that could be noticed... oh wait that would land me in a place I don't want to be.... I really hate my life. And if you know me personally, it would be a good time to start talking to me... It may just help, to get all of this out of my mouth instead of through my hands. How much longer can I take this, this time?

First weekend of the Fall 2012 Semester

Happy Labor Day, everyone. All it means is a day without classes, and lots of study.


But before that day, comes today. I can't seem to want to stay around people.... which is a little concerning...  I want to just be alone, but I don't want to study. Which is slightly frustrating. What else can I do if I don't want to study? So I try and blog, and get things out, but not towards what I should be doing. (insert scream here)