I feel awful!!! So alone I need a meeting. I decided after 17 days to use..... What an awful feeling. I'm not sure I can describe what I feel.
Few hours later, I feel like I dissociate when I use and then for hours after. I am a sex addict and I seek recovery. But I don't know how.
I have a few options for today. One is taking care of me. Two, going to see a guy and have some fun. Third, staying home and listening to something I don't care about. There's risks for all but, I just don't know. Or I do things a bit different and take care of me by asking my parents to come with me to share with them what's been happening. There's to many options!!! How can I choose. All sound great. But at the same time I need to take care of myself. I just don't know. I feel lonely.
