Ugh

I know I have a lot to work on, but I'm doing laundry, so Netflix is on, and I'm distracting myself from homework. Then again the stress is starting to get to me, because everything is just coming down on me. I need to get to work on a paper, assignment and reading/studying.

Time

I have a very busy week, but not wanting to do much, except watch House. Then again, my mood today is not good. I'm trying to focus on other things, I need to practice scales. Then again when your instructor asks if you are ready for Technical Jury, and you say maybe. mmmm time to move places, then maybe I can get something done.

WORST month so far this year

I keep thinking of suicide, due to what is going on. I found out the cash price of the medications that I am on is over $3000. Honestly with that bit of info, it freaks me out. I'm doing all I can to get medications. But until that time that I can go over to my doctor's office, the worry and dark thoughts continue. I'm doing all I can to stop the thoughts but, it's just not working. I have classes today, but the assignments are not done, and my head is hurting physically. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared, and I don't like it. I'm freaking out, and trying to control where I am mentally. Needless to say I'm in a bad place, ad class is about to start. Please can I just curl up on the floor and sleep. This so does NOT help me, being so close to the end of the semester.