I'm changing the content of this blog.. But just for today... I want to focus on my fears and a book called "A Year without Fear" by Tama Kieves. (ISBN: 978-0-399-17353-0) I found this book at the library and wanted to dive into living without fear. I encourage you to buy the book.... as soon as I can I think I'll get it. :)
I was on top of a ladder, one with 12 or so steps and became fearful of heights, then I thought, of all that could happen and it impacted me. I've been afraid of falling off the ladder, which is very common. But today, I want to focus on that and find something to help me overcome my fears, and this book seems like the best place to start.... "Today, I love with boldness. I'm not worried about taking the 'right' actions" This seems to fit the situation. I was afraid that I was not taking the correct actions to keep me safe on top of a ladder.
The previous day talks about saying no to some actions, I have the opportunity to say no, and to say yes. This weekend there is a conference that I want to go to... but it all depends on work. Or I could just say no to work, and say yes the the conference. Decisions, Decisions, but I will not live my life in fear of doing something. That is just something that I have done way too much.
I looked ahead at another date and found this, "Today, I take my time. I have nothing to prove." Now I have to say Wait a minute!!!!!! Taking my time to do things because I have nothing to prove... how can this be. But then I look up and see that Artists take their time in perfecting their creations, just like musicians!!! I don't have to prove anything to myself, Just have to be the best that I can be.
I think that's enough for today. Now to go back to 12 step reading to overcome an addiction. At least I am awake and wanting to do other things than just watch Netflix all day long.
This is a little sample in hopes that many others will buy the book. I will not post more than this, But I can't wait to read the rest of the days. :) Dates not used on purpose. Happy hunting.
I feel so much better after posting this, it has helped me to see that I have lived in fear for quite a long time and, it needs to end. I can't wait to read the rest of the book and journal about it in my personal journal. Although I may share my insights here.
