New Resource

I was looking on PsychCentral and came across this website

http://www.crisischat.org/

I wanted to put it here since I have a hard time wanting to talk on the phone to my T.

At least tonight, I've been around kids and that has helped me to want to live.... but the snow and  ICE doesn't help me. I strongly dislike Ice and winter driving and I get to do more winter driving unless the roads are bad.... I still can't believe that it snowed in St. George, Utah, USA.... and they have NO snow removal program. I sure hope people are safe.

Why?

Why do I have to have a mind full of death, darkness, sickness, and fear?

I'm not even sure if it will end, or what to do. I haven't told to many. I'm just not sure how much longer I can hold on.

Bad night

I was asked about the why behind the suicidal thoughts. ... I had no idea what triggered them. Could have been a perfect opportunity, or something else.  I didn't reach out, partly due to hearing "what can we do to help? " and then the concern in there eyes. I hate asking for help. Tonight when I found myself typing advance directives... well that freaked me out. Mentally I'm not safe. Physical I am safe. No matter were I go.... I can't run away...  the thoughts are always with me.   Maybe I better draw tonight.