Day One

My Commitment to Recovery from Sex Addiction

The last few months have been filled with many people but one general sadness of one that I have forgotten to include. This blog will be a daily journal of the prayer, and recovery work that I now seek to do. My therapist gave me a "Daily Sobriety Contract" This is between my God of my understanding and myself, but I seek to bring many others in to help them to see the good work that God is doing in my life and the lives of others around me.

Confession:  I have cheated!! I'm single and yet I've still cheated on my future husband.. This is serious work, and I intend to do it. Today I start the rest of my journey in recovery.

I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and I'm a sinner, just like every imperfect human on this planet. I need God's love and support nor more than ever. I was reading the introduction of "LDS Family Services: Addiction Recovery Program" and it states, "We have known great sorrow, but we have seen the power of the Savior turn our most devastating defects into glorious spiritual victories. We who once lived with daily depression, anxiety, fear and debilitating anger now experience joy and peace. We have witnessed miracles in our own lives and in the lives of others who were ensnared in addiction." I now seek the joy and peace that others have felt!!! I am excited to begin this new journey but very nervous to give up my character weaknesses...

But weaknesses can become strength!!!

I pray that I may be able to find what I am seeking, and that I may be able to be a better person. God, grant me the serenity to go throughout the day with less stress, and more joy!

I am very busy but I can't be too busy for this. My life depends on this....

Now my Daily Commitment to Recovery
God, I commit myself to one more day of sexual sobriety. No sex with myself or anyone else, no pornography or anything like it, from now until this same time tomorrow! I also ask that you help me to become clean again this day and always. That I may feel of your power and commitment to me and that I may be able to give up my character weaknesses when I am ready and thee is ready to assist me. I should mention, I am now trying to come back, please accept me as I am and make me stronger today until this time tomorrow when I ask thee again!

As of today I am decreasing medication, I am feeling very nervous and anxious but I know that through meditation and through deep study of spiritual things that I can heal!



In the last week I have felt that I have cheated on my future husband, and doing so has brought much, no great amounts of sadness. I know how important the law of Chastity is, its a protection not a rule.

I also am starting to go to a recovery meeting, reaching out to others that I may be healed from this addiction. Now I ask you to join me in my study.

I am not only a sex addict but a Co-Dependent!

I now need to heal and be open and honest with those around me.
Key Principle: Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.

I am not only a sex addict, and co-dependent but addicted to shopping. I seek to heal from all of these by living the program and finding others to help me.

Action Steps
Become willing to abstain
         To abstain means "restrain oneself from doing or enjoying something" (from https://www.google.com/?ion=1&espv=2#q=abstain%20definition ) But to abstain is not enough I must ask for assistance in this every day. I must seek to change my thinking pattern. 
Let go of pride and seek humility
        What does that mean to me?? It means simply seeking to let go and let God. A movie comes to mind, "God's Not Dead" where God is defended and supported where people humbly seek Him.
Admit the problem: seek help: attend meetings
Right now my job prevents me from going to most meetings but I can still seek recovery and help through various different resources. He has given me a powerful one, and it's prayer, but not only that He has given me the ability to think and to write out what I think for more power in helping me to let go of the problems. 

Three Addictions
I have three addictions! I finally said it, and I need help on  all three of them, but first I will seek to gain a relationship with God. Thee best way to do that is to study His words and become closer to Him. I looked back at my first step and I am now wanting to do the program again to really seek help and understanding of this new life. 

Thanks for reading this and stay tune to tomorrow for more on my journey with God!