Study time..... or just not losing myself.

I see a lot of dark things in my head, and they just don't go away, I've tried medication that I was prescribed, Aromatherapy, and sleep... after all that, they are still there. I hate this it makes it harder to study, and I can't be alone, I have to be in a public place. Inside I'm trying to find a way to live... but it's hard when it's medication caused. All I know is my study sessions are affected, and my practice times. Please bring me sweet relieve. :)