I'm back....

After 5.5 days, I'm home from the behavioral unit. I was suicidal for 4 weeks, and finally after a panic attack, I went in. I don't remember what happened the first few days, or where I was but now I'm back now. The time spent at the hospital was a good thing, it's good to be home, but I'm scared to be left alone. Tomorrow I'll be left alone, and I'm planning on driving tomorrow, with my mind that likes to go at speeds way to fast. I can numb it down with Alieve but that's not good for every day but tonight may be just a good idea so I can actually think a bit... I hope. I'll be posting more later but for right now I've got myself to take care of.