Malingering...

I'm trying to study about malingering but I'm getting triggered. The whole thing about someone being dishonest about their symptoms and that others can see right through those lies, is really getting to me. I'm starting to wonder if theirs any of that for me. In a one-on-one session, there were many psychology terms that were identified, for example, conditioning to laughter and overly excited reaction to suicidal thoughts. Now that I see malingering, I just want to scream. He did ask if I was safe and I said yes. Only 2 people know (or at least were told). I don't know why it is happening, but its bugging me. I have to get through this study session and class without breaking.