Chem Test DONE :)

I'm glad to report that I got my test done and only had one problem that I completely forgot on... not sure if I got it or not. And may have gotten a few others wrong, but I'll get the grade later, and learn from it then. For now, I'm taking a slight break to deal with some issues. For today, it seems like I was a bit more stressed about my classes in the past week, and may be blowing a few things out of proportion. The best thing for me to do about that is to remember the end goal, to gain a good education to move on to medical school. I'm trying to learn as much as I can and to remember what I have learned for the MCAT. I just hope that all goes well.

In order to be prepared for the MCAT, I have to really learn my classes. And I want to learn them, it just seems like my mind is the thing that is sort of stopping me. And that I want to deal with. In just the last 3-4 hours I've had thoughts go through my head that are absolutely terrible. The type of thoughts that the Pros. would want me to talk about and judge me if I am safe. But I can honestly say I am safe. I am going to do work out later today, to get my mind to just let go of all of the thoughts and see if the good pain of working out will help to ease some of the thoughts. But before then, I have to try and put up a front, or do I want to with the Psychological testing that I have later today. If I don't put up a front then I could have it be in the Evaluation and it may help get extra help for my classes, If I do put up a front then,  the Illusion of the evaluation comes into play. I really don't now what to do, but for now, I'll go to my last two classes of the day, have lunch, and get some studying in. After the appointment I will go to the gym and work out. I just hope it will help so that I can figure out Physics and write my essays that are due next week. But like my Chem Professor says, I have to keep "my head in the Game." (High School Musical, Disney) And I better use that same thing with trying to get my mind in a different place, one where I wont have to hide my thoughts from the rest of the world.

For things really are not that way, Hiding leads to trouble, and trouble leads to places I would rather not go again.