Yikes

Where do I even start. What do I even write. What can I really say. The last two days have been hard. I don't even know where to begin. I'm scared, I don't want to even write anymore. I'm scared. I don't want to hear a certain phrase. I'll do anything to not hear it, but it doesn't help, at all. What can I do, who could I turn to, who won't say those words, and just help me.