New Year's Eve

As 2011 comes to a close, nothing has really changed. The SUI and SI thoughts are at full strength. I wonder what could happen in the first week of 2012. I just don't know how long I can last like this. I need the money, I need to work, but I need to release some of this mental anguish. I don't know what coping strategies could work, don't know what to try, or what even I can do without telling people around me. I don't know what to do, I know what a few people would have me do, but the fact is I"m just too stubborn.